Sometimes I just want to crawl deep inside despair. The fear of having hope and trust and then having reality take it away seems unworthy of my stability. I want to stay inside my cave where I take no risks and allow no error or failure. This week, I received some good news. My electrical …
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On Mentorship
About 5 years ago, my grandfather died from Parkinsons. He was the best mentor I have ever had and his lessons are still with me today. I even have a little tattoo which reminds me of our conversations. He would have HATED it. When I was growing up, I was straight up afraid of my …
Women who fuck with fear
Spending an exorbitant amount of time in my new favourite self care place, my bath, has given me a lot of time to read. I started the year with a history brief on the teamsters and the story of Frank, the Irishman. A solid start, crime based history lesson of the teamsters in the United …
Practicing Vulnerability
I stood in front of a room of strangers and shared that I twitch. Have I gone mad? Probably. My adventure down the path of allowing myself to be vulnerable continues to be a hike up a steep hill. Every step is painful, but I can feel myself reaching the peak where I can be …
Life can suck but you sure can make it worse
Fearing paralysis, I sent myself into an absolute frenzy and panic. This aggravated my symptoms to a whole new level. A very friendly doctor in emergency saw me, and conducted a number of physical tests. She calmly told me that my reflexes and muscles were responding in a healthy way, and it was unlikely to …
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This tingling isn’t sexy
On a Friday afternoon in January, the tingling started. Unfortunately, not the sexy kind. That pins and needles sensation was moving through my hands in a “whooshing” sensation. Whoosh, the pins move in; whoosh, the pins move out, in a rhythmic motion throughout the end of the work day. Concerned, I ran to the resident …
Me Without Caffeine 